Sitting

I sit. I make a stitch. The rhythm is easy to find, the pace mirrors the beating of my heart and seems almost like a prayer.

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Will this one be the right house? Dear Lord, please guide us in making the right decisions...

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Can we afford this? Is this really the best decision for our family?

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When I'm worried, I feel colder.

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Please help me understand what we should do...

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I am thankful for big balls of yarn that won't run out anytime soon. I am thankful for little babies all safe and warm inside their mothers who'll need a blanket when they greet this big, wide world. I am thankful for cozy quilts stitched with love to keep me warm as I wait and watch and worry. I am thankful for having something to occupy my hands while my head and heart run a mile a minute.

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Stitch by stitch, I'll make it through this. Stitch by stitch, I'll find my calm. I'll find my peace. I'll find my happy place.